Friendships

I have been reading the book, "Friendships for Grown-ups" recently. And although I knew I would like this book, I didn't realize what an impact it would have on me.  I have found this book to be a source of support for me. I am not sure why it is so hard to have valuable, meaningful friendships as adults. I have a lot to offer!! I have been hurt by so called "friends" in the past. Women that I thought were my friends that in turn were talking about me to other people in a negative way. Or women that I have trusted who have told my heartfelt secrets to others. I have been betrayed by "friends". Why is it so hard to find people with real values and morals? Who can love me for who I am? There are a lot of "friends" these days that are only there for me when they see me at a weak point. And although I appreciate those moments, I would really like to not be a pity case. I want friends that love me when I am strong and when I am weak. I get very discouraged when I put myself out there and am rejected, so to speak. It happens more often than not. It makes me sad. And I wonder if it is just me.

Pain in the...

I am bruised and sore. I had a cardiac ablation done on Dec. 29th, 2010 for my WPW. I have put this off for 20 years. It was minimally invasive like the Dr's have always said. I arrived at the hospital at 7 am. Went to the procedure room at 7:45 and came out around 1ish pm. I was not totally put under but was in a twilight. After I was brought into my room to recover, I had to lay flat for 3 hours and then for the last hour I was able to sit at a 30 degree angle but was not allowed to move my head forward. I left the hospital at 5:00 pm and came home. I have bruising from my groin to my mid-thigh. But all in all, my recovery is going well. I am still having some palpitations but I won't really know for a few months whether or not it worked. It has been a long time coming and I am so hoping that I do not need to have it done again.